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SORRY, I’VE BEEN BUSY. 

Sorry I haven’t been on in a few weeks. I quit my job, then I got a brilliant job, but it turned out to be worse than any job in the entire world so I quit that job too and now I’m unemployed. But I got accepted for voluntary work so now I’m working in a Marie Curie Cancer Research shop and applying for like 437923875 different jobs.

SO YEAH. Busy busy busy, I’ll try get back on soon. <3

I’m sorry, I can only imagine how it must feel. Have you ever considered counselling? With confidentiality laws they are not allowed to tell anything to anybody unless you are at risk of hurting yourself or others, or others are hurting you. I would seek professional advice, even if you read up about it online, what to do in your circumstance. See what other people in the same situation have done and how it’s turned out for them. It’s different for everybody, I can only guess, but I’m sure it will give you a rough idea of the different possibilities available.

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the art of being five years old: by matt and karen [x]

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Yes, I am also aware of embarrassment being a huge factor. You are not at fault, no matter what anyone says. Please know that. Do you still live with your brother? And have you told anybody at all, friend, relative, etc? I’m not saying you have to talk to somebody, if things are bearable and there is no chance of it happening again and you’d rather keep it to yourself then it is your choice. But if there’s even the slightest possibility of it occurring again then I would strongly advise you to seek even professional guidance on what to do or even talk to your doctor. Please don’t think I’m trying to force you into talking to people when you don’t want to, I’m merely giving my best advise and guidance based on what I know.

I agree, at the time you were young and it was terrible what happen there is no doubt about that. But you’ve come away from that a stronger person no less. I know it’s not easy to move on straight away and maybe you never will, but would you ever consider using it as an opportunity to turn it into something good? It’s unreal to know that so many people suffer sexual abuse in complete silence because they think they’re alone. All people need is for someone to speak out and say “I’m here for you, I understand.” Is that something you have ever considered?

If it were me, I would find out for sure whether she is straight or not before trying anything further. You don’t want to be getting hurt and at least if you find out she is straight there’s a respectable boundary there. If she isn’t, strike up a conversation, make her laugh. Just talk about the weather, it’s always a great starting point!

It’s not pathetic at all, we’ve all been there. Have you spoken to him before or are you basically strangers to one another?

Do you want to talk to her or would you rather remain unknown in a sense? Stupid question, I know, but it will give me a fair idea of what to say. If you want to talk to her, start off slow and introduce yourself properly, ask her out for a coffee or just to chat, get to know one another. Who knows how it will progress from there.

I am so sorry that you had to go through all of this. I am totally unaware of his motives, but there was no reason and no justifiable excuse for what your brother did. I know it is far easier said that done, believe me, but if you ever feel low to the point of wanting to inflict harm upon yourself please, please talk to somebody. I’m always here to talk to if you need me, and I would like to reiterate that to the rest of my followers. I won’t judge a single one of you, and I will do my very best to try and help, or even just be someone there to listen. Please don’t deal with things alone, there are so many people out there that value and care for you. You are such an inspiration and you probably don’t even know it. I complain every day about stupid things that don’t matter and worry about how life is going to turn out for me if I do one thing or another when none of it is significant. You have been through so much and you’re still standing. You are so strong, and I hope that someday I can possess that same quality of strength that you have. Stay strong, my friend, and don’t forget there are people that care. I am always here if you need anything.